I was talking on the phone with a friend of mine in LA a few minutes ago and he uttered a surprisingly pertinent question. “Is it a metaphor that Victory Avenue in Los Angeles is closed?”

This is as good a point as any to start my post today. Sorry for not writing yesterday, but I’ve been pre-occupied with a job interview. I’m frustrated with the state of things in my life. A little under a year ago, I took a pretty hefty pay cut to get out of a bad work situation, only to throw myself into a bad economic situation with another bad work situation rapidly approaching.

It doesn’t look good for me. But I still have time to turn things around.

My job is not easy. Most people probably think that sales people are slimy, gold chain wearing used car hawkers. And to be honest, in my industry, most still can be classified as such; but I’d like to think I’m above that. Problem is, most people I come into contact with don’t give me a chance to prove it. The bulk of my job has to do with cold-calls, telephone or in-person visits to solicit business. Not easy when you work for a small relatively unknown company. I believe in the product I’m pushing, but having a hard time believing in myself lately. This is probably in direct relation to the amount of money I’m making. I’m not making enough to live comfortably, but the money is there to be made. So it’s a bit of a mind-fuck. The harder I work, the more chances to make more money. But I’m struggling so its hard to have enough faith in myself to do the job I’m being paid to do.

I have brief moments where I shine, but they are very brief and there is a wide gap between them. To tie this into the question posed above…

How do you get to drive on victory avenue if its closed?

Do I stay in an industry that I am familiar with, but not all that interested in, or do I try my hand at something new knowing it would be starting over in everything (including pay scale)?