my last post needs some clarification.

The Padre called me frantic, Double D left some wise and wonderful words, and Jerbear uttered his concern.

in my less than eloquent verses, I was attempting to share with you, my faithful readers, that I am at a crossroad. I can either continue down the same path as I have been for my entire life, or I can veer to another path and try something new.

I’m choosing to try something new. I’m choosing to throw off the shroud of my fear and begin to see the sunlight in my life. I have many wonderful friends and have accomplished many things in my years here. Have I accomplished my goals yet? no. Have I even identified them yet? no.

So the choice I spoke of, the difficult choice I made, was to part with what is comfortable in my life. Double D and I have taken a step apart at my request. He’s an amazing man. I may have underestimated just how amazing he is, but that doesn’t change the problem for me. We had a conversation a few weeks ago, ok, more like an argument and I asked him in a heated moment “What do you want from me?” His response, set my mind spinning and has opened a pandora’s box of questions begging for answers. He proceeded to share with me, in great and loving detail, what his dreams for the future were. They are lovely dreams, noble and bewitching in both their simplicity and their scope. The problem arose when I could not share mine. I saw glimpses of myself in his vision of the future, but for the most part, I drew a blank. I had nothing to share. I have managed to stumble so far from my original self that I cannot even recall the simplest of dreams I once held.

I’ve come to realize that I cannot ask Double D to stand by while I take time out to explore myself and find out what exactly it was that I wanted from this life.

Like a good man, he set me free to find my dreams, my inspirations and my goals.

I cherish his input and his warmth and will miss him on my journey. I am richer for having shared this time with him, and I wish nothing but love and happiness for him.

So, off we go… lets see which direction this adventure takes me.